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                  Chapter Five: The
                   First Night 
                   
                 Dr. 
                 Roselyn Pastern put the sealed, Erlenmeyer flask carefully into the 
                 armored red case. The flask, containing 18 ounces of purple, 
                 nanotechnomagical plasm, fit neatly into a hollow in the dark gray 
                 foam that lined the case. Pastern then lifted the red armored cover, 
                 and laid it over the front of the case, making sure that the locking 
                 mechanisms were properly aligned. 
                 At the top 
                 of the case, near the handle, was an active surface; this she touched 
                 to initiate case lockdown. The red case politely locked itself, an 
                 artificial voice indicating that lockdown had been successful. The 
                 entire clinic could now be destroyed, and the contents of the red 
                 case would survive, untouched. Such a comfort, thought Dr. Pastern. 
                 It was 
                 late. Dr. Pastern placed the case on the shelf, and went to the door. 
                 Lynn had already tidied the Conversion Room for tomorrow, so there 
                 was nothing left to do. The reports were completed, all conversions 
                 for the day had been accomplished, and three more human beings had 
                 been changed into the strange, beautiful creatures of Equestria. 
                 Exiting 
                 the chamber, Roselyn sealed the Conversion Room door with the swipe 
                 of a finger on the active surface built into the Maxium Security 
                 doorframe. It had been a strange day, and things had not gone as 
                 smoothly as they should have. Roselyn reached out to the right to 
                 close the 'boo-boo' room door, the infirmary, which had been left 
                 open. She liked things tidy. 
                 Her first 
                 conversion had been a woman named Carmine, who had turned out to 
                 apparently be a sociopath. Conversion hadn't agreed with her. For two 
                 weeks she had lived among the staff and applicants, seemingly the 
                 most kindly and gentle soul among them. Upon conversion, she had 
                 screamed of her unworthiness, filled with guilt and shame, for the 
                 first time able to feel both. She had run out of the building, along 
                 with an older man, Tyler, who had been scheduled for the second 
                 conversion of the day. 
                 The second 
                 conversion had been a walk-in, and Pastern had allowed herself to be 
                 swayed by the funny, eccentric woman who had bounced in from the 
                 ruins outside. After conversion, she had become the most elegant and 
                 peaceful of creatures, Caprice, who had in mere hours established 
                 herself as the darling of Bureau clinic 042. 
                 The last 
                 conversion of the day had taken forever, with a pregnant teen named 
                 Sharon unable to decide, exactly at the end of her two-week 
                 orientation period. That had been the kind of unpleasantness that 
                 Roselyn disliked the most; sticky relationship drama of the basest 
                 sort. Roselyn loathed histrionics; they got in the way of effective 
                 solutions. Roselyn loved effective solutions. 
                 Fortunately,
                  her second conversion had saved the situation; Caprice had somehow 
                 convinced the young mother to undergo conversion at last, though very 
                 late in the day, saving Pastern a lot of forms, explanations, and 
                 trouble with the Bureau. 
                 Roselyn 
                 was very grateful for that; now she wouldn't be up all night, and 
                 could get some rest. She could also have some time for her own 
                 personal need. It was something she did not want anyone to know 
                 about, something she was deeply embarrassed that any other person 
                 should ever see. 
                 Inside her 
                 private room within the clinic, Roselyn carefully locked the door. 
                 She moved to the chest by her cot. Sitting on the floor, she told the 
                 chest who she was, and gave her security phrase. It was a quote from 
                 Aldous Huxley. She spoke in a steady, quiet voice: "Maybe 
                 this world is another planet's Hell." The chest considered 
                 for a moment, then unlocked itself. 
                 Roselyn 
                 reached into the chest and lifted from it a worn stack of thin, 
                 ancient books. They had been written for children, long, long ago, 
                 and had been printed on actual paper made from the last of the trees. 
                 To a wealthy worldcorp elite, they would be the find of a lifetime, 
                 to a Pastern, they were a family treasure, passed down 
                 generation to generation. But to Roselyn, personally, they 
                 were her only peace. 
                 They had 
                 been called 'Little Golden Books' and Roselyn's favorite was an 
                 ancient tome, faded and yellow, called 'The Pokey Little Puppy'.
                  She didn't know why it held such power over her, but it did, and 
                 when she opened it, her heart sang and cried at the same time. 
                 Somehow, little childlike things answered some grief in her; she had 
                 wondered if she was mourning her own lost innocence. In any case, it 
                 was not something a respectable professional should be obsessed with. 
                 That said, 
                 Roselyn desperately needed her little books about sweet little 
                 puppies, and kind animal friends. Even as the faded images nourished 
                 some deep, lost part of her, they also caused hurt, somehow. It was 
                 just that some days, her small collection was the only way she could 
                 calm her mind, the only way that she could sleep. 
                 Today had 
                 been a trying day. Tears, as usual, ran down her cheeks as she began, 
                 in a soft, quiet voice; "Five little puppies dug a hole under a 
                 fence, and went for a walk in the wide, wide world." 
                   
                   
                    
                 Bethany 
                 had removed the cots from what had been Sharon and Tyler's room. 
                 Originally Nathan and Tyler had been assigned there, but Tyler had 
                 immediately and quietly swapped things around so that he could have a 
                 love nest with Sharon. There, he had kept her isolated for his own 
                 benefit, enjoying the hospitality of the Bureau. He had planned to 
                 run in any case, once the two weeks were up; Sharon's pregnancy was 
                 simply last call to him. 
                 Instead of 
                 cots, two thick, fabric-covered foam slabs had been placed on the 
                 floor, each with a comforter and a pillow. Ponies did much better 
                 sleeping on a low, flat surface, than struggling with a cot made for 
                 humans. The foam rectangles were too small for a human to entirely 
                 fit upon, but the smaller Equestrian form was perfectly suited to them. 
                 Beth 
                 explained to Sharon and Caprice the basics of sleeping in their new 
                 bodies. "As newfoals, you have basically three ways to sleep. 
                 What I mean is that there are three positions that most new ponies 
                 find comfortable." 
                 "Three
                  ways to sleep?" Sharon thought this sounded very exotic. 
                 "Sort 
                 of. You can lay on your side, that's pretty common. You can lay on 
                 your belly, like Caprice is doing right now." Beth indicated 
                 Caprice, who had folded her back legs so that her rear hooves met her 
                 belly, and her forelegs so that her front hooves curled up and nearly 
                 met her rear hooves. "You can also sleep standing up." 
                 "Standing...up?"
                  This was new to Sharon. 
                 "There
                  are many differences between terrestrial horses and Equestrian 
                 ponies. But there are also many similarities, and one of those is 
                 that you can lock your legs." Beth tried to show the motion of 
                 joints locking with her hands and arms. 
                 "Our 
                 legs can lock? Like stick in place?" 
                 "Basically,
                  yes. I can't tell you how to do it, you'll have to try it 
                 out. But apparently it's pretty easy to do." Bethany leaned 
                 against the wall to rest her back. "Once your legs are locked, 
                 ponies can just go to sleep like that." 
                 "Won't
                  we fall over?"  
                 "No, 
                 you won't. That's what the leg locking is for. You can just stay that 
                 way, and you won't fall over." 
                 "Cool!" 
                 Sharon began trying to get her legs to lock. It wasn't as easy as 
                 Beth seemed to say. 
                 "There's
                  a catch, though, according to Dr. Pastern. She says that you won't 
                 sleep as well standing, as you would if you lie down, because if you 
                 sleep standing, you won't dream. Apparently dreaming is important, 
                 somehow." Beth straightened up, intending to leave. 
                 "What 
                 about lying on our backs?" Sharon had given up on trying to lock 
                 her legs, and was now squirming on her foam mattress, belly up. 
                 "If 
                 you like. If it works for you, great. But most ponies can't 
                 seem to stay comfortable long on their backs. Something to do with 
                 the way their legs are, or their spine or something. You'll figure it 
                 out. Now, be good girls, and I'll see you in the morning." Beth 
                 stepped out into the main room. "We've gone over how to use the 
                 toilet, how to get water, and now bed. Tomorrow there's a basic class 
                 on personal grooming; it would be a good idea to go to it. Oh! One 
                 more thing!" 
                 Sharon and 
                 Caprice looked up expectantly. 
                 "You 
                 should give Dr. Pastern a big thank you, Sharon. She's 
                 authorized you one more week at the clinic so you can have a chance 
                 to catch up on what you missed before. She's really sticking her head 
                 out for you on this one, so don't let her down, OK?" Dr. Pastern 
                 was a big softy, Beth thought, deep down. 
                 "I 
                 won't mess up this time, I promise!" Sharon meant it. She wanted 
                 to be the best pony she could be.. for her foal. 
                 Beth 
                 smiled. "Good night you two. Oh, and welcome to Clinic 042, Caprice." 
                 "Thank
                  you very much, Bethany." Caprice smiled up at the receptionist. 
                 "I'm sorry I gave you such trouble, earlier." 
                 "Feh. 
                 You made Doc Pastern smile, that's good enough for me. G'night!" 
                 Beth shut the door behind her as she left. 
                 Caprice 
                 swung her long neck, and moved her pillow with her teeth, adjusting 
                 it just so in front of her. She tried lowering her face into 
                 the pillow, but that didn't quite work. She moved the pillow closer, 
                 so that her nose and mouth were clear. Better. She tried laying her 
                 head sideways on the pillow. Hmmm. That kind of worked, but she 
                 worried she might wake up with a kink in her neck. 
                 This was 
                 going to take some experimentation, apparently. Then again, it was 
                 an entirely new existence. 
                 "Caprice?"
                  Sharon was on her side now, realizing too late that her pillow was 
                 opposite her head. 
                 "Yes, 
                 little angel?" Caprice decided to try laying on her back, just 
                 to see. Her legs hung over her. She tried to lay them flat, as a 
                 human might rest, but they didn't seem to lay flat, and it hurt to 
                 try to strain them that way. So that was the problem. Or part 
                 of it, anyway. If she had a much softer bed, then maybe... 
                 "I 
                 wanted to thank you for helping me. I wouldn't be here now if you 
                 hadn't come over." Sharon's eyes looked wet; she felt like 
                 crying although she didn't understand all of the reasons why. She 
                 couldn't help a little sob. 
                 Caprice 
                 rolled over and stood up. She tugged at her mattress with her teeth, 
                 and kicked at it with her hooves, moving it up flush with Sharon's 
                 bed. Caprice carefully lowered herself to the mattress, and moved her 
                 pillow again. Now she was lying on her side, facing Sharon. "Come
                  here, little angel." 
                 Sharon 
                 squirmed, hooves flailing over to Caprice, and snuggled into the 
                 crook of her foreleg. Caprice lowered her other leg over Sharon's 
                 body, resting it there. Sharon sobbed gently against Caprice's chest, 
                 her muzzle warm against the soft, peach coat. 
                 After a 
                 while, Sharon stopped crying. She felt warm and safe next to Caprice. 
                 It was like she was a baby again, and was cuddled up next to her 
                 mother. Was this what it would be like for her foal, one day? "Caprice?" 
                 Caprice 
                 gave Sharon's head a little nuzzle with her own "Yes, little angel?" 
                 "We 
                 kinda left the light on." 
                 Caprice 
                 raised her head and looked up at the active surface on the wall. It 
                 seemed miles away, and she was so tired. "Yes... yes we 
                 did." Caprice lowered her head and closed her eyes. It had been 
                 the most amazing day. The best day of her life. But it had also been 
                 utterly exhausting. 
                 "Caprice?"
                  The peach mare was already asleep. Oh well, maybe ponies sleep with 
                 the lights on? Sharon didn't want to move either. 
                   
                   
                    
                 Alexi 
                 settled into his large, foam bed. He had the best bed in the clinic, 
                 and probably the entire Bureau. It had taken a few unusual trades and 
                 barters to get the bed, but he valued a good night's sleep. He worked 
                 hard to keep clinic 042 in whatever they needed, there was no reason 
                 he shouldn't occasionally improve his own situation. Only fair, really. 
                 Today, he 
                 had managed to get carrots at the last minute for Miriam, apparently 
                 Dorcas had forgotten to order more from supply. He had needed to 
                 agree to arrange for the San Francisco Bureau director to get five 
                 Equestrian apples with the next shipment, and he wasn't exactly sure 
                 how he was going to accomplish that. Nevertheless, he would find a 
                 way. He always seemed to find a way. Heh, he thought, if he were a 
                 stallion, that would probably be his Mark. 
                 What would 
                 a 'procurement' Mark even look like? 
                 He had 
                 also gotten Lynn her blankets, finally. That had been more 
                 complicated than he thought, but Sergei in 084 had owed him several 
                 pillows for over a month now; he had managed to convert that debt 
                 into blankets, after setting up an interim trade with clinic 064 for 
                 more toilet paper and the use of a plumbing torch for a week. The 
                 064'ers always had trouble with their plumbing; that part of the old 
                 AppleSoft complex had suffered the most damage back during the 
                 bombing of San Francisco. Always somebody needs something, and always 
                 there is something another has extra. 
                 Two hands 
                 shaking in agreement? No, an Equestrian 'cutie' Mark would never have 
                 a hand as a symbol, theirs was a world without hands, without humans. 
                 Alexi rolled on his side, and tried to imagine if two hooves could 
                 shake. Maybe if they pressed them together somehow. Did Equestrians 
                 even shake hooves? If he were a stallion, would they need someone 
                 like him in Equestria? 
                 Alexi 
                 suddenly realized what he was really thinking about. Her. 
                 "Easy, there, boy. That's some strange territory, after 
                 all." He was surprised that he had said that to himself out 
                 loud. He was thinking about a pony, and he was thinking about her that 
                 way. She was not even human. Alexi felt a little creepy. Was it still 
                 beastial if the other party was a fully sapient being? Did such 
                 things even matter anymore? And what if he were a pony too? Did that 
                 suddenly make it all right? And if so, why? This was strange territory. 
                 OK. Alexi. 
                 Let's think about this. He took a deep breath and rolled on his back 
                 again. She was a girl, a human girl, just this morning. Now, she's an 
                 Equestrian, a completely different species, but... she's still 
                 a person. A sapient, self-aware being. No, that wasn't the issue. He 
                 was just deflecting from the real issue. 
                 She. 
                 Looked. Hot. 
                 Admit it, 
                 boy! Be a man and just admit it. So, she had more legs that the usual 
                 girl. Hey, Alexi was known to be a leg man. So she had big ears. Lots 
                 of girls have big ears. Besides, they suited her. Because she was a pony.
                  No. No. No. This was getting nowhere. Why couldn't he stop 
                 thinking about her walking away to talk to that girl? Stop it, Alexi. Warning. 
                 You are entering the weird place, where the weird people live, doing 
                 weird things. 
                 Alexi had 
                 dealt with hundreds of ponies during the past six months. Half of 
                 them were females. Not once in all of that time had he thought this 
                 way. Some of the women who came through, sure, some had been really nice.
                  Real 'lookers' as the old detectives used to say. But then they 
                 became animals, and pif - that was that. He had no interest in 
                 ponies. Why should he? He was a human man. 
                 It was 
                 reasonable that... tastes... would change, once a human was 
                 Converted. Conversion changed everything, it was only reasonable that 
                 attraction would change too. That was just natural. Such a thing 
                 would have to happen, or no newfoal would ever be able to find a mate 
                 or raise a family. Only reasonable. 
                 But, hyvänen
                  aika! That tail swinging over that big round....NO! Alexi 
                 flopped over on his other side. ENOUGH. He willed his brain and body 
                 to behave, and began listing what he needed to get done in the 
                 morning. He definitely needed to solve the apple deal with the 
                 director, and maybe there was a way to help the 064'ers fix their 
                 plumbing once and.... 
                 Caprice 
                 was so kind. She was the most amazing person. The way she just helped 
                 that girl! And direct. Alexi liked a woman who knew what she wanted 
                 and said what she meant. She was what his grandmother had called a 
                 hyvä nainen, a good woman. Her heart was truly kind and... 
                 Alexi 
                 rolled over on his other side. He would never get to sleep at this 
                 rate. All this was his fault. He had given the wrong impression. His 
                 love of grandiose gestures... biting that apple from her teeth - 
                 romantic, perhaps, but stupid. Stupid, stupid Alexi. She's a pony 
                 now. She's out of your species. She'll soon enough be out of your 
                 world, literally. 
                 Of course. 
                 But... still... if he were a stallion.... 
                 Alexi 
                 buried his head into his pillow and softly screamed: Vittu 
                 tätä paskaa! 
                   
                   
                    
                 Dr. 
                 Roselyn Pastern was dreaming. In the dream, she was somehow aware 
                 that she had experienced the same dream before. It was familiar. The 
                 general was there. He was explaining about how she had been chosen 
                 because of her paper. She had written a paper about her experiences 
                 treating the victims of the attack on the nanofactory. The 
                 technicians had suffered nanocoversion of large patches of their skin 
                 and limbs. She had made the symptoms and treatment clear for the 
                 general, and he was convinced of her expertise. 
                 She felt 
                 like a fraud. She wasn't an expert on any of this. But the job, oh 
                 the benefits! She'd be working directly for the military branch of 
                 the world corporation! 
                 Suddenly 
                 she was in an office. It was incredible. Everything was so 
                 shiny and expensive. This was how the elite lived. Metal and glass 
                 and holographic decorations, fountains with running water and carpet. 
                 Oh, the carpet... and there was real coffee to sip. She signed the 
                 holodocuments, of course she signed the documents. The security 
                 clearance requirements rolled past forever and ever and... 
                 It was the 
                 room. She knew this room. There were the five men. She couldn't 
                 remember their names. She never knew their names. They were ugly men, 
                 dirty and mean and frightened. They had been shaved bald, and bound 
                 into some kind of restraining mount, not quite a chair, not quite a 
                 table. Their vocal cords had been paralyzed so they wouldn't be bothersome. 
                 They were 
                 corporate prisoners. It didn't matter what for. They were the 
                 property of the government now. 
                 One was 
                 looking at her. He had a large body and a wide face. His mouth moved 
                 at her, soundlessly. Then she saw the large spoon-dropper in her 
                 hand. The shaft of the tube held a cherry red, viscous liquid. She 
                 saw her hand squeeze the injector bulb and the red fluid ran to the tip. 
                 The man 
                 was crying, his silent mouth moving. The general was by her side, 
                 waiting. The lieutenant was telling the general about how Roselyn was 
                 not fully committed to the project, how he felt that she was a poor 
                 choice for a top secret project of such global importance. Roselyn 
                 knew what happened to washouts given Umbra-Cosmik-Magik level clearance. 
                 She was 
                 afraid, she was so afraid. 
                 The man's 
                 head was being held, his mouth open. Two blackmesh corporate soldiers 
                 held the man's bald head. She put the dropper in. The general was 
                 nodding. She squeezed exactly one ounce into the struggling mouth. 
                 The next man would get two ounces. They were trying to find something out. 
                 The 
                 blackmesh soldiers jumped back. The bald man railed against his 
                 bonds. His face contorted, as if he were screaming, but all that came 
                 out was a soft hiss. Over and over the man hissed. 
                 And then 
                 his neck started to extend. His fingers began to glue together. Parts 
                 of him began to melt, and he was hammering his body against the 
                 restraints, faster and faster and his face began to turn soft, like 
                 dough, and his eyes began to sink into the dough and the hissing 
                 became a gurgle and the man was jerking, jerking, his twisting limbs 
                 shaking so quickly and then his hands stopped changing, and his neck 
                 stopped stretching, and his eyes just froze there, half submerged 
                 into his head, and he stopped gurgling and he stopped shaking and the 
                 man was just quiet now, and she was there, looking closely at his 
                 face, what was left of it, and it looked partly human and partly like 
                 the aliens from the dome in the ocean, and she thought he was dead 
                 now, only she could tell that what was left of him was still 
                 breathing, and the thing just kept breathing and she made the 
                 lieutenant laugh at her because she couldn't stop throwing up, and 
                 throwing up and then there was nothing left to throw up but her body 
                 just kept doing it anyway and the lieutenant just kept laughing. 
                   
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